Monday, October 16, 2006
We must move forward, not backward - upward, not forward - and always twirling, twirling, twirling towards the future...
That's how I have felt a lot recently, moving in contrasting directions, while always twirling towards freedom. I'm being torn between doing the work I feel I have spent my college career putting myself in position to do OR doing something greater for the world while not being compensated for the work I put in. Decisions, Decisions. Can't we just all watch the Simpsons all day long?
In case you haven't checked my mini-feed today (let's be honest -- no one besides me in 10 years will read this note anyway), I am attending the project runway finale on Wednesday night even though I despise the show (but to be fair, I've never really watched more than 30 seconds of it). Why attend than you ask? The good people that will be there.
I've noticed that I really have a problem with motivation lately. As of this note, I only hold two positions on campus that only require roughly 5-10 hours a week of my time. And I am taking 14 credits. But nothing else. I really thrive in situations where I am also helping run a campaign, volunteering at a charity regularly, add 2 leadership positions, and make it mid-term week too. While I definitely have more things to do, I utilize my time much better. Now, I only have 2 hours of class on M/W, yet I lay in bed until 10 AM, stay on the computer doing nothing (stuff like this ) until noon, go to class, do office hours and talk to random people about nothing important, come home and pretend to read, watch 4 hours of compleyely random tv, and go to sleep-- repeat. I could do so, so much more with the same 24 hours though. Basically, I need motivation.
While I hate resorting to cheesey quotes or book, I found this web-site (http://www.motivateus.com/) and plan at least to update this daily with a quote from there, as well as what is going on in my world. Today: "Happiness is essentially a state of going somewhere, wholeheartedly, one-directionally, without regret or reservation." Kind of fits in with the subject of this note. This week, I am planning on going to lots of BACC stuff (general meeting Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Fat Tuesdays at 11 PM, a potluck dinner social/fundraiser where the officers bring the food and the members pay $5 to eat on Thursday, and make a difference day Saturday morning ). I also have two tests, two parties to go to (Wed and Sat night), and an ethics competition to help with, but even with all that, I could do so much more with just a little motivation ...
In case you haven't checked my mini-feed today (let's be honest -- no one besides me in 10 years will read this note anyway), I am attending the project runway finale on Wednesday night even though I despise the show (but to be fair, I've never really watched more than 30 seconds of it). Why attend than you ask? The good people that will be there.
I've noticed that I really have a problem with motivation lately. As of this note, I only hold two positions on campus that only require roughly 5-10 hours a week of my time. And I am taking 14 credits. But nothing else. I really thrive in situations where I am also helping run a campaign, volunteering at a charity regularly, add 2 leadership positions, and make it mid-term week too. While I definitely have more things to do, I utilize my time much better. Now, I only have 2 hours of class on M/W, yet I lay in bed until 10 AM, stay on the computer doing nothing (stuff like this ) until noon, go to class, do office hours and talk to random people about nothing important, come home and pretend to read, watch 4 hours of compleyely random tv, and go to sleep-- repeat. I could do so, so much more with the same 24 hours though. Basically, I need motivation.
While I hate resorting to cheesey quotes or book, I found this web-site (http://www.motivateus.com/) and plan at least to update this daily with a quote from there, as well as what is going on in my world. Today: "Happiness is essentially a state of going somewhere, wholeheartedly, one-directionally, without regret or reservation." Kind of fits in with the subject of this note. This week, I am planning on going to lots of BACC stuff (general meeting Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Fat Tuesdays at 11 PM, a potluck dinner social/fundraiser where the officers bring the food and the members pay $5 to eat on Thursday, and make a difference day Saturday morning ). I also have two tests, two parties to go to (Wed and Sat night), and an ethics competition to help with, but even with all that, I could do so much more with just a little motivation ...
# posted by David Meyrowitz @ 1:15 PM 
